Monday, January 5, 2009

The Scene
Monday. F me :(

So, um, I have a confession: Not digging The Office. For months, I've been consciously refraining from bitching on the blog. It's just unseemly. Don't want to be that lame, boring girl.

And well, there's no point in moaning and groaning. Not ever. Not really.

In the grand scheme of things, I KNOW I have soooo much to be thankful for in my life. I make great money and have a rich personal life outside of work. So I can't complain. Not really.

It's just that I find my job demoralizing. In both obvious and insidious ways. Every day. I'm not particularly inspired. I'm not even engaged.

So there you have it: today, for the most part, I was miserable. Not just kinda miserable. Not just a little bit miserable. Today there was no denying I was full-blown, almost in tears, wondering how I ended up here, M-I-S-E-R-A-B-L-E.

Thank god for The Peeper.

And Sable Crow

And my Jean Bean.

Today all three of them helped me get through the day. They helped me plan. And dream. And imagine a better future. All over email and IM. Ha!

These three wonderful beings helped me think about all the things that I could do other than what I am doing. Work that could make me happier and more fulfilled and maybe even inspired. Jobs that could make me feel valuable and productive on the planet.

These old friends, these DEAR friends, made me feel like something more than just a cog in the wheel. They reminded me of who I am. They reminded me of who I could become. Hearts.

And ironically, one of the worst days EVER coincided with my highest blog visitor day: 579. I've been averaging about 350 visits a day!!! And do you know what search accounted for the majority of those visits? Olivia Palermo.

Yep, because I had one close-up image of one beotchy socialite on my one super sweet blog, I got nearly twice as many visitors today. From ALL over the world.

So I beg of you: never underestimate the power of MTV. And keep dreaming. It's the only way to get through life's rough patches.

The Outfit
Forever 21 leggings and tunic
Vintage trench coat

The Accessories
Chanel purse
Forever 21 scarf
Steve Madden boots

The Grade

The Commentary

Another one of the benefits of blogging is being able to review homerun outfits from yesteryear. That's what I did a few days ago and remembered the hot outfit I wore last January, the outfit I wore today.

The scarf with the tunic and the trench are magic, no? And the scarf and the tunic and the trench with the boots and the Chanel. Yum-my.

The only nuance in today's outfit versus last year's: unfolded the fold on these boots.

Unfolded the boots hit slightly above the knee. One part Kate Moss

Another part Olsen twin.

With a dash of my BFF Nicky Hilton too.

At work I even felt a little bit Pretty Woman.


Speaking of hos, I apologize in advance for all the Olivia blogging ahead in 2009.Look, if this NYC social, can help this L.A. brownie draw more blog traffic, I am all for her.

Especially in those tres hot bib necklaces - I want!

And asymmentrical ruffles. So hot this spring.


WendyB said...

You are entitled to complain when work sucks. You spend a lot of time there! You (and other women) shouldn't feel they have to apologize for having a complaint because "it could be worse." Complain all you like! :-)

weezermonkey said...

Boo! I hate Olivia Palermo! She is so unworthy of everything she has!

What I hate more, though, is that you're unhappy. :( Chin up, buttercup. Smile at the thought of me in whatever ridiculousness you plan to put me in next time we dine....

Sable Crow said...

Diabolina Diabolina Diabolina!

Complain all you like. You will recieve the following from me in return:
- a bit of good-natured grief
- a dash of optimism
- a little self-indulgence
- one heaping pile of support
- two hoarse squawks

It is the alchemy of friendship: I will do anything possible to convert your lead present into a golden future.

My only fear is that, as I have discovered, prolonged periods of unhappiness tend to be self-reinforcing. The longer you stay in them, the more likely you are to stay. Emotional inertia. I've done an exhaustive, 10 year study of this pattern: first in work (for four long years), then in the quest for a house (2 years), and forever in the realm of relationships (15 years, give or take some statistical errors).

Beware the patterns. They are murder to break once established.

And remember, just because something isn't bad doesn't mean it has to be good. You chided me about that: beware the dualities.

Your work may not be as bad as it gets, but that doesn't mean you have to like it as if it's any good.

tam pham said...

i'm sorry you're feeling down :-(. i completely empathize. email me if you need any moral support. kiss kiss.

MissJordyPants said...

Been there. It's awful and disgusting and it will begin to affect all parts of your life. No need to be unhappy. Decide where you want to go and then go there. It's a tough road, but worth every single painful step.

JillFantastic said...

My husband is in a similar situaion. He cannot stand his job. He is overworked and grossly underpaid, but feels stuck because his industry is suffering from major layoffs. In some ways he is thankful to still have a job (many of of co-workers no longer do), but he comes home cranky and miserable every night.
You spend some much time at work and when that time is spent in misery, that feeling begins to creep into your 'real' life and it's hard to shake.
If you are able to leave you job - do it. If you haven't already started seeking out new opportunities - do it. My husband has been looking for a new job for months, but in his industry, there just aren't any. Hopefully that is not the case for you.
Good luck!

Jean Bean said...

We'll figure a way out. Don't despair, Mija.

amber said...

i'm sorry to hear the job is sucky :( i hope you're able to make some headway in improving things in the year to come. hang in there.

and at least you looked good today!


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