Diabolina Digs
Wanting.
I want to feel normal again.
I want to laugh and not feel guilty.
I want to feel like I know what I'm doing.
I want answers. I want solutions.
I want to do the right thing.
Say the right thing. BE the right thing.
For her. For him. For everyone.
I want control.
I'd even take the semblance of control at this point.
Sigh.
And I guess I want shit-kicker booties too ;)
I want to feel normal again.
I want to laugh and not feel guilty.
I want to feel like I know what I'm doing.
I want answers. I want solutions.
I want to do the right thing.
Say the right thing. BE the right thing.
For her. For him. For everyone.
I want control.
I'd even take the semblance of control at this point.
Sigh.
And I guess I want shit-kicker booties too ;)
5 comments:
i bought me pair of louboutin ankle booties when they were super on sale, but i have't worn them yet. too intimidated :-/.
In time, honey. You're more resilient than you think, and you're going to bend your mind around this new reality before long. For what it's worth, I think you are perfect.
Oooooh.. Those boots would look fab with a balenciaga bag.
Dear Mr. Diabolina,
Fashion Terrorista here. I promise not to use my weapons of mass destruction (e.g. my AMEX) if you hook your wifey up with some goods. I will only surrender peacefully when these conditions are met:
1. Balenciaga bag
2. Sexy booties (and I ain't talking about the sexy booty she already has!)
3. Sprinkles
But I mean that ever so sweetly!
Smoochies,
LRB
By simply being yourself, I think you are all those things to all of those people. :)
I want these things for you, too. I'll echo words a very wise woman once told me, when I catalogued a similar list of wants to her:
"It's good to want things."
I've never forgotten your advice, D. It's been a pleasure and a pain and sometimes both. It IS good to want: It means we still have a vision of how we'd like things to be. And that--in a way--is hope. And hope hurts.
And I second the Bean, and LRB.
SC
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